Monday, August 13, 2007

before i was a mom...


♥ Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. ♥
♥ I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
♥ I never thought about immunizations. ♥
♥ Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. ♥
♥ Pooped on. ♥
♥ Chewed on. ♥
♥ Peed on. ♥
♥ I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. ♥
♥ I slept all night. ♥
♥ Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. ♥
♥ Or give shots. ♥
♥ I never looked into teary eyes and cried. ♥
♥ I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. ♥
♥ I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. ♥
♥ Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.♥
♥ I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. ♥
♥ I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. ♥
♥ I never knew that I could love someone so much. ♥
♥ I never knew I would love being a Mom. ♥
♥ Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. ♥
♥ I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. ♥
♥ I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. ♥
♥ I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. ♥
♥ Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. ♥
♥ I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. ♥
♥ I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom. ♥


Not all of these are exactly true in my case...I babysat very frequently when I was younger and experienced many of the "nastier" things mentioned in this poem. I haven't lost a ton of sleep at night since he's been born...only when I was pregnant- I could never sleep when I was pregnant. And I knew I would love being a mom. Ward always told me, even back in high school, that I was made to be a mom. And I'm certainly not a perfect mom, but it is definately the most fulfilling thing I've ever done. That little guy is my whole world. I can't wait to see his adorable smiling face in the mornings. I love watching him shove cherrios in his mouth. It makes me giggle when he blows raspberries at daddy or crawls on the dog. He makes me so proud when he accomplishes something new. There's nothing in the world I'd rather do than to be a mom. It's one of the many things that no one can truely understand until they've experienced it. I have been known to cry when I see his big crocodile tears when he doesn't feel good. I've been known to spend way too much money on toys, books and clothes. But he's just so perfect. He's so sweet and innocent and just precious. His daddy is the only one who I could ever love more. God's gifts are so good.

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