Nightmare Round 2

So, we're still not through the nightmare that was this pregnancy. At my six week check up they became suspicious that perhaps the placenta had not come out cleanly after all. So today I went in for an ultrasound to see what was going on.

There is a large piece of what we're assuming is placenta. It still has a good deal of vascularity (blood flow) and could possibly be into the bladder. Don't ask me how you miss this when you're doing this surgery, but apparently they did. They would normally just do a regular D&C but they can't because they don't know if I will hemmorage upon removal. (basically the same worry we had the first time they tried to remove the placenta.)

So Friday at 2 I'll be going in for hysteroscopic d&c. They'll use a camera to see exactly what they're dealing with and will attempt to remove the placenta, but won't be aggressive in trying to remove it. They'll get as much as they can and then wait to see if they got it all. If not they'll put me on a medicine to attempt to kill the tissue. If they get in there and it's into the bladder or to deeply embeded, they'll do a hysterectomy.

So the amazing way that the placenta just "came out" after the birth was some kind of illusion. Now we're back to wondering what's going to happen and hoping I don't hemorrage during surgery. I'm trying to remain positive, but to be honest the whole situation is just really wearing on me. I know that there is a reason for everything and I want my response to be God-honoring, but frankly I'm just tired and I'm frustrated and I'm discouraged.

Thankfully, if the procedure goes as planned, it will only be an outpatient surgery and I will be fine immediately after. So just pray that all goes according to plan and they can remove this without any further complications. Thanks.